everything happens for a reason, and more often than not, they're for a pretty good reason too. its really stupid that i post here when i have the other blog, but knowing no one will read this sort of gives me a private outlet in a way. too much stuff's been happening lately and my body aches. My mind is also.. everywhere, i don't know what to think about and even what to think exactly. It's all so confusing but at the same time i love the feeling. Weird i know. I hope things will be made clear in the future, near or not i can't decide. '

To you: I'm so glad we're still good friends. We've been through so much and now that we're where we are i'm so happy. (that made no sense) The fact that you can trust me with just about everything makes me so happy. and it reminds me of how it used to be, when we were oh-so-close. i guess we still are nowadays even though we're in separate worlds completely. it's sort of as if a little parts of the worlds overlap and we're there. i hope that nothing ever changes between us. and hopefully what you tell me you want to happen in the future will actually happen :)

To you: I'm so confused by .. myself i guess. I guess i want to more than i do. Or maybe i do but i just don't know it or don't want to admit it, because.. i'm scared? Although there is nothing to be scared about. I really care about you alot and in the short time i've got to know you i really like you. In what way i'm still unsure, maybe i will know soon. I'll let things happen the way they're meant to, i won't push anything nor will i stop it if it does end up happening.. I just hope that we're both .. happy? I don't know.. i just hope everything turns out for the best i guess..