oh em gee. what the hell is wrong with me. why do i feel the way i do? do i like you? im not supposed to like you, you have a gf for crying out loud. you're not even that.. great to her so why the hell do i want to be in her spot?
omg i swear theres something wrong with me. i always end up liking the wrong guys. all the time. havent made a right decision since year 9. i know. what the hell.
and why am i jealous anyway? it was only a game. everyone did it? so why did the fact that i saw you make my heart.. flip and hurt. why do i feel this way. i don't need to feel this way. i don't deserve to feel this way. i deserve better than you. but dammit i just can't get over it.
maybe its coz im like that. it takes me alot to like someone. even more to keep liking that person. and a hell of alot to stop liking them. am i loyal?  im not sure. i was fickle with my last relationship so who knows how i'll be in my next on?
do i even want to be with you? right now, yes. i do. but that will change in the future. i can't be with you. you're not who i thought you were. you're worse and i don't like going out with bad people =]
so i guess i just want to let it out so that i know what i feel is real and hopefully i'll get over it.
i liked you.
i might even like you.
but that's all about to change.